These days are going crazy, like me.

Hey Old crones out there. Another day passed.

Its fast isn't it? I seriously hope things are getting better these days.

I think my emotions are switching on and off easily this days.

I must, really must get hold of it. No. I have to.

Today aren't the day for me, as a leader of characters probably.

I know I'de make no sense. Just listen can you?

I didn't liked it, totally.

Why did you tell him I was there? Why did you bother to show my face to him?

Why? I really wanted to ask you this, without hesitation.

But I realise I can't do this. It isn't the right way. There's nothing going on with us.

So why should I bother in the first place? I shouldn't have. Yes..

Perhaps, I regretted my choice. Truly, from my heart.

I can feel shivering, and furious over my head, I can feel it.

I didn't quite enjoyed the time, sitting on a bench, and trying to avoid all I can.

I suppose to have canteen duty today. But I escaped.

Sometimes... I'm pondering, I don't want to be here..

Things are hard to explain Ya know.

I don't want to be thought as, a crazy woman talking no sense.

Oh cut the crap out of it. Did oral today. Was thinking not bad.

But Something seemed to reminding me again and again.

Beware, never take things easy too much. Or belittle perhaps.

Just, conclusion. I didn't had a great day today. Its like worse of the worst.

Serious, No doubt. I realise, the more the eager gets stronger within me.

The greater I fall deeper, and faster. Which I'm anxious about.

Afraid of thinking too much, and crossed the line. Which I always do.

I wished I have the chance, to visit that another world of me. I wished so hard.

I tend to whimper easily now and then. It's starting to pile up, like a habit.

I found another part of me. Probably susceptible I guess.

I always didn't like the idea of consulting someone when I suffered a setback.

Or when I feel so Upset over certain things, that I just couldn't express.

All I can do, is bawl. Which seems like, OH MY GOD,LOSER. That kind. Yes.

So tedious.. that I can't stop kicking away my mind of staying stationary.

Wherever I am, Just Lie transfixed. And Reverie. Yeah. Which is part of my hobby.

I loved it so much that, I can't stop doing it inevitably.

Tomorrow Going to have Physical Lesson. Not really looking forward to it.

Its sucks, as my mind recalled. Just caught a glimpse of my test papers result.

It was so horrendous.. I can't go on like this anymore.

I have to do something about it. I got No stress at all. Which sounds bad.

Well, as expected. Its still the same after years passed.

Alright, Since I've found out all my shortcomings.

Time for me to make amends , Nature of beings.

Packed up, and Vacate now. Bbfn my beloveds.

Me, dejected and aghast, totally.

My perfect masquerade have been smashed, by your bare hands...

There's no way you can embed the little pieces of memories back.

Small as crystal.Like powder of Wicked Magic.

I miss you..

Goodbye....