Today totally ruined.

Sorry peepz, so long then i post. I post before, but cuz i press wrong thing then all the words are gone :( And im far too lazy to type them again. >.<

My mood is swaying currently and just now too. I hate this days.

You were once my closest friend, my 'mummy' and the one i love most.......



But this fact seems to change.
Maybe there had been some problem. Thats why we drift apart.
I dunno why im starting to dislike you. Because you seem to changed to another person.
And that 'another' person.....that attitude....that personality..... I dun like.
Things are getting worse for me. I feel absolutely sad and just unable to explain that sadness.
Im starting to hate the ppl around me. The things that occurred.
I dunno why.... Maybe things always gone bad in the end.
I love you so much..... But, you doesn't seems to treasure our friendship.
You doesn't seem to care about me and our friendship anymore.
I am only the one who is trying to save this friendship. I love you much as a friend.
But you dint spare a thought for me. You dint even ask or care how do i feel when you leave me all alone with other ppl. And although im following other ppl, my mind was all bout you all.
You dunno anything..... I am the only one who is feeling sad bout this.
But u dun seem to bother bout this. You can even laugh happily like the past and pretend nothing had happen. Or maybe not pretend. Is you totally dun care or dunno?
I wonder....

Even if some day i get back to you all, you don't care how i feel even if im left out.
I feel uber terrible... I thought things aren't gonna turn out this way.
I thought you will be the one who is able to help me.
And go through hardship wif me.
But in the end, you're not the one. Instead, you disappoint me.
I dunno who am i going wif now. So confused. Mixed up.
There's only one person that have always remain in my heart.
She never fails to leave that position. Even if she doesn't show that she cares or dun talk to me.
I still noe she cares... She's none other than my chm.
Not you, my 'mummy' anymore. You leave me all enola when i need you the most. ):
I always feel like crying whenever i see you. But i always have to put up brave front.
I don't wan you to pity me. I just wan you to care. Im not pathetic AT ALL. ):

Many things happen in this past few weeks and days.
Not gonna say wad happen. >.<
Even baby seems to change. I seriously dun understand why.
Going bonkers! Ewww.

I don't think this world, has ever had this word "true friend".
Im just so attracted by this word, but it doesn't seem to exist.
I wan that.

I wan a true friend that is always by my side.
I wan a true friend that i can share troubles and happiness with.
I wan a true friend that can help me when i have problems.
I wan a true friend that nvr fails to support me always.
I wan a true friend that treats me fairly.
I wan a true friend that don't badmouth me behind my back.
I wan a true friend that can be natural and don't have to act good in front of me.
I wan a true friend that can lend me her shoulder when i feel like crying.
I wan a true friend that i can heart to heart talk with.
I wan a true friend that can keep my secrets.

Lastly, I wan i true friend that can share sweets with me. (:

Is there one?

Signing off; kxu